I have a pretty bad crush on a guy that doesn’t even notice me. Like, I’ve had this crush for the last year or so….hmmmph.
I can’t help it…I am definitely in love with you.
This will forever be my series of unfortunate events.
Trying to live without your love
Is like one long sleepless night
Let me show you boy
That I really know, I know wrong from right
The Avett Brothers and adventures in Wilmington with Seany for his birthday.
(probably one of the best and hardest nights of my life)
It’s not getting any easier to comprehend. Kiss me. Push me. Hold me. Ignore me. You’ve got this game on a roll and you’re definitely the pro. I’m just being dragged up and down, left and right. Don’t smile at me and tell me this is what you want. If you truly wanted this, you would take it. It’s instinct. Fear is an instinct, I know. But if the decision is 100% like mine is, fear should be no obligation. Trust is not an instinct. But it is learnable. You’ll never be happy if you can’t trust yourself or the ones who care deeply for you. That’s fine, I’ll give you space. You need to figure this shit out, not just for me but for yourself, your family and whoever may be in your future plans. But you just keep sinking and somedays you don’t fight it. You’ll never survive or succeed. I honestly don’t need this, but I can’t let go.
Watching “One Tree Hill” at work. HOLY SHIT. I am in love with Chad Michael Murray!!!