I struggle way too much with my past. My heart aches when I lose people who were close to me. I’m not sure why this struggle is so real for me - I have had an amazing past, I have an amazing present and I’m so excited about my future. But no matter how hard I try, I can’t break ties with painful memories. Facebook is probably the easiest place where my old wounds can be reopened in seconds. Someone unfriending me, seeing photos of certain people moving on…there are so many things there that bring up my past. Yes, I could easily delete those people who cause pain, but it is so hard to force myself to do that. I care about everyone I meet, so I care to know how they are doing…
Ugh, idk, feeling really depressed today.
A wall. A big wall. A big, giant wall. A big, giant, scary wall. This big, giant, scary wall is really big, giant and scary.
I’m scared to climb the wall.
I’m scared to break the wall down.
I’m scared to let go of the wall.
But I desperately want to trust him.
Anxiety. That little thing that slowly grows bigger over time. Happy times, lonely times, separated times, together times, stressful times - all times really. And as it rolls on over those times, building upon itself, it grows unstoppable. The tiniest thing can cause the explosion.
A missed phone call, boom!
A forgotten endearment, boom!
A plan ruined, boom!
A is for Anxiety causing Attacks.
Legs kicking. Breathing speeding. Body shaking. Voice screaming. Frantically trying to fix what went wrong. Feeling your whole world cave in. The idea that you no longer seem important.
The last time I experienced this, I lost the person who meant the most to me at the time. And yes it was my fault. My past is only coming back up as I experience this Anxiety Attack again. But it is different now.
You’re not walking away. I love you for that.
i feel really bad when people screw up in the olympics like
no let them do it again i’m sure they can do it right if they tried again oh no
(Source: takayaabe, via pretty-rekkless)
Oh hey Tumblr. I didn’t see you sitting there. I guess I’ve been walking right past you for the last few months. My life has been such a busy blur and I’m so sorry I’ve been neglecting you. You used to serve as such a great outlet for all of my crazy emotions and thoughts - you used to help me keep that craziness so organized. But don’t worry, I’m still crazy. And I’ve been keeping it all bottled up. But now I really think it will help me if I can release that craziness once again into your arms, dear Tumblr. Be prepared.
HORSE IN NEED OF BLANKET IN CENTRAL NC- PLEASE SIGNAL BOOST!
it was brought to my attention that someone posted on craigslist that their horse has no shelter and no blanket with the snow coming tomorrow. this person is looking to buy a blanket for a small horse (15.3) in the triad area of NC.
pleeaassee signal boost even if you are not looking to sell a blanket! it hurts my heart to think of a horse with no shelter or blankie out tomorrow :(
Oh no! They should have sent this around sooner! Ahhh!
"Stop romanticizing people who hurt you."
this is like when you’re sitting with someone that you really like then you like touch knees or something and all of a sudden you feel all this energy going through both of you through this one point of contact
(Source: elentori, via redlipstickandpearls)